Haunted...

Why is it so difficult - for people like me - to forget your past, sometimes? What kind of imbalance, sickness, psychological disorder - is it, which denies us control over the ability to move past the idiocy we performed in our former lives?

Why is it that we can remember, with amazing clarity - the moments that we are at our worst - the hurts we inflict upon others, the things we said or didn't say, the moments when we should have damn well known better? And the successes, triumphs, the tender, gentle, caring....human moments, vanish and fade so quickly?

Sometimes, my life feels like a daily crucifixion.